Monday, December 21, 2009

#5 Design Sense




In college I was an editor for the newspaper. I loved writing, but editing and laying out pages was a huge challenge for me. Some people seemed to really be able to create greatness on the page out of NOTHING. It took some effort for me to feel comfortable with it. But, eventually, I did. I boldly chose color combinations and design elements like it was a sixth sense. That "sense" spilled over into my (sometimes odd) choices for decorating my apartment and dressing myself. I felt like I had a sense of who I was, and I loved expressing myself visually. (This is where some people are probably saying, "What?? You wore those outfits on purpose??" And my answer is yes... except for the helmet.)
So, now I have a whole house to decorate and design, and I'm drawing up a complete blank. Now that it's "for-reals" and I am an adult with a mortgage and a child to influence, I can't find a single wall color or plant without having a near anxiety attack. Seriously. For some reason I just can't bring myself to say what I like outloud, as if it won't be good enough or something. Because of my lack of confidence in my design sense, we now have a peach-ish tan basement. It's not my style, but it's there because I trusted in the opinion of a friend/co-worker who obviously has different taste than I do.
I just need that old style confidence back. I need to stop caring what other people think, and do what makes me feel good in my own home. Oh, and I guess I should consult Jon on this, too. We'll see!

5 comments:

Hilary said...

Exactly why I was never an editor....TOO MUCH PRESSURE!:)

Shelly said...

You really should stop caring what other people think! It makes life much easier!!

Karen said...

I think for most everyone paint is a hard thing to pick. you never know what that two inch swatch is going to look like on a whole wall or whole room. You can get samples or paint for $3. so you can put a bit on the wall first....
really I stalked you on your blog because I can't find you number.... and need to tell you thank you for letting me barrow the little dress. I need to get it back to you. I'm so sorry I've had it so long!! call me or email me your address so I can drop it off.
801-557-8784---karencanen@gmail.comThakns Bonnie!!!

simplycaitlin said...

It's hard when it's your house though! I feel the same way. Although I have to say Ella's nursery is one of the cutest I've seen and I know you did that.

Melanie said...

Ummmm... we could be identical twins, but I think you already knew that! I'm having the same issues committing to a cohesive design theme in our house, and now I need to start thinking about a nursery. Since Ella's turned out awesome, I think you should come to Arkansas and help me with mine!